Tangled Thoughts

So I wasn't sure what I want to title this.  I am thinking a lot of things right now.


1.  Grades were released
  Microbiology - B
  Cell Physiology - B
  Healthy Psychology - A
  Genomics - A

I have to admit I am a bit disappointed in the B's although those were some pretty challenging course, I think if I would have worked just a bit harder I could have had A's. But nothing can be done now.

2. I am stressed out.
-  still have not found another job,  I have had a couple of interviews, but the word wont be back until after the holidays.  They are also lower paid and small hours.  And the one that pays the most, is only like 19 hours a week.  And unfortunately the hours conflict so I couldn't do both if I was offered them.   -  I am thinking about finding a full time 3rd shift job, since I only have class tue & thur.  Also I would be able to get Jordyn to/from dance and competitions when they start up.  But I know working full time overnight will put a challenge on my ability to make the grades I want to make in my courses, which ultimately defeats the purpose.

- MCAT studying is not going well.  My progress is slow and I am getting intimidated.   I will go over content and fell comfortable, but then take practice problem and its like I don't remember what I just read...  But when I look at answer explanations its obvious...  so frustrating.

3.  Considering giving up...   so for the past few days with the MCAT stress and financial stress.  I think WTF am I doing?   Those are the same reasons I didn't go after it before.  I was intimidated by that test, and I needed money.    And here I am again with the same worries. 

One year after making the big leap and I am already doubting myself.

I think if I could get my financial situation under control I could do what I need to about the test.  I could even push it off until April, and just not worry about applying to that Post-bac program.

In the back of my head I know giving up is not really an option, at least not without trying.  Especially since I am one semester (+ fitting in calculus somewhere)  away from completing the BS. 
This is one of those times I wish I had well off family I could go and live with ( or win the lottery), that way I can just focus on getting the school and test done.  I just need 6 months, and then I can find a full-time day job, for the year that I am waiting to hear back on applications.   Unfortunately those kind of thoughts are useless and unhelpful.

Its Christmas Eve and doesn't really feel like it.  I didn't decorate or even wrap my daughters gifts.  I was able to get mostly everything she asked for so that was nice, but I don't really feel in the spirit.  I am kind of just ready for it to be over and done with, its just one more thing to stress about and the traffic sucks.

Ok...  I am finish complaining.  I really didn't want to write these types of things here, but hopefully I can come back and look at them after I have made it over the hump, and be happy that I kept pushing forward through the doubt.
 
Happy Holidays

Grades are trickling in

So far I have 2 A's for this semester

Genomics & Health Psychology.

I had my Cell Phys final today, she screwed me over on one of my projects given me an 18% even though I met all the qualifications.   She apparently screwed a few people over, because her TA's have sent out multiple emails saying she will not look back over them until after the final.

I really hope that she changes it.  I had 83 before the project, that went down to a 70 after it.

I got an 88 on the final.   If she gives me a better grade there is a small chance I can make an B or A in the class, which would be VERY nice.

I am still waiting to hear back on Micro.  He doesn't post on blackboard so we have to wait for the official School scores to come out, and the grades are not even due for records until after the 20th.

I don't even want to guess what I am going to get in there.  I got an A in the lab, I studied pretty hard for the final, I felt like it may have been a B. So I hope I can get an B in the class.  Hopefully someone really screwed up and we got a decent curve.


I have talked to a few family members and friends and am starting to get the...

How long do you have left in medical school?

You are in medical school right?

Where are you going to medical school?

I really hate those questions,  and not because of the people, I know for the most part its just conversation or interest.

But I feel like such a dumb A$$ when I am like, I'm not in , I apply in May.

which ultimately leads to ... well how long will you be in after that...

and the looks on people's faces when I mention the number of years is a bit stressful.

I have gotten to where I break it up.  I will just be like.

Well I spend 2 years of classroom learning, and then everything else is rotating around the specialties.   I have NO idea why I do that.   I mean it doesn't really matter, they are not the ones going through it.  I am.   But for some reason I feel I have to justify why I am spending the next 8 years of my VERY adult life trying to do this.

Anwhooo...

I got an email today reminding me about my MCAT on 1/23 (as if I could forget).    I am SOOO ready to get this test over with. I start my hardcore study plan tomorrow. 

I was supposed to start today, but since we had an ice storm, my final was pushed back a week, so I just went to the gym after it, and came home.  I got on the PC, but have not studied.

Tomorrow, I will not come home until I have spent a full day in the library.

Focus... Where can i find it?

School -

Its the week before finals week.   I have not been studying as much as I should.  My Genomics final is take home, I spent a few hours on it today, and only got to question #2.  They are really tuff.   

I don't think I will start with that tomorrow, I have too many other things to get done and it takes a lot out of me.   I may just start with regular studying and then try to get a few more questions done.

Hoping I hear from the genomics professor that is going to let me work in his lab next semester, he mentioned I could start early during the off semester so I can learn as much as I can before the semester starts.

Also waiting to hear back on what 1441 labs I will have to TA for.

Right now Tue/Thurs are going to be my full days


Work -

still NOTHING here..  I applied for some more jobs today.   I think I mentioned before I applied for this work from home company that basically contracts out phone based customer service.   I got a few hits for some technical support jobs, but the training last for 1 - 3 months and they are M-F during the day.   And just like every other technical job that pays well and I qualify for I can not work those hours.

Hopefully one of the others will come through,  I may start doing a little tutoring also. I kind of enjoy it, I just have not done it in a while.

"The Plan"

basically still on track.  Still plan on keeping my 1/25 MCAT date.   Plan to go full scale study effort after finals finish.

I think I am going to try and continue to volunteer at the clinic. May even through to do it through the Winter break.


My Rug rat -

She is doing well.  Grades and getting homework turned in on time has been good for the past 3 weeks.  
She has a few performances in the next couple of weeks, looking forward to checking those out.

Life -
nothing here..  stressing over not having a job.   Still working out, trying to do my cardio outside of my training sessions.   Still need to work on eating more often, and making better choices.

I guess that's about it.  Hopefully will have something fun and exciting on my next post... I am starting to feel like a broken record.. ;P

What's the Haps

So its been a while, (I think).  I failed to look at the date of my last post, but don't remember writing anything recently.

anywho...

school.
its moving along... Finals are around the corner.  I think I am going to be able to get at least 2 A's.  and I am working hard to keep the others at B at a minimum.  I would have to make really high A's on the final's to go any higher.

I think my schedule for the Spring is Set.  I talked to my genomics professor today and it looks like I might get to work in his lab in the spring.  I will also be working as a TA for the 1441 Cell Biology Class. I don't know what labs I will have for them.  I requested the Tue/Thur night lab.

My proposed schedule.

Tuesday
Plant Science Lecture 11-12:20
Principals of Animal Physiology Lecture 12:30 - 150
Principals of Animal Physiology Lab 2-4:50
Cell and Molecular Biology Lab TA 7-850pm

Thru
Plant Science Lecture 11-12:20
Principals of Animal Physiology Lecture 12:30 - 150
Plant Science Laboratory 2:450
Cell and Molecular Biology Lab TA 7-850pm

I am hoping to the throw my Genomic Research lab work in 8 - 10 on Tue/Thr and Friday when I have to be on campus for the Cell and Molecular Biology TA meeting.

Work
---- still nothing here---
I have applied for a couple other jobs, but not many
I am kind of torn.. I know I need a job soon, but I would like to have the Christmas break free to hit my MCAT study hard and just try to get something afterward.
Also next years schedule will open up more options for me, since I may potentially have 2 days of the week where I am available during the day.

There are quite a few retail places that are hiring for the holidays, but I HATE retail, that and food service was the main reason I went to college they were the worst possible jobs for me. People can be a-holes..

The plan
I am a tad bit off track with graduation. 
I don't think I will be able to do it in the spring, because I did not get in my calculus. Still might try to test out of them, but I have to have find time to study.  Maybe after I get the MCAT out of the way.

the MCAT... so I signed up for the January test. I have my last prep class next Wednesday. But I kind of screwed myself on that. I had no time to get in the work required outside of class.  So I am going to have to do independent study when I am out for winter brea.    I will still have access to the materials and onDemand courses.  I can also sign up to retake a summer intensive, but I don't know that it will really provide me anything that I can not do on my own. 

I have to admit every now and again  I think about trying to look into something else like research going for PhD instead of MD/DO.  But I don't think I will.  for a couple reason

1.  The McNair scholarship that helps pay for Masters and PhD that really got me considering the option does not allow you to already have a degree, so my BS disqualifies me.

2. I wont get to work at a clinic or practice medicine.  I don't know that I like research enough to give that up.   One of my major things was going to be able to provide patient care.

3.  I think I would feel like a total failure.  and I would have a hard time facing all those that helped me to attempt to reach my goal to be come a doctor and then not do it.

4. Without a scholarship I could not afford to not work for 2+ more years while getting a MS.  I know I wont be working as a medical student but the loans account for that, and I can still work for a special program that has loan repayment plans for service. 

I think I will just enjoy my time working in the genomic lab in the spring and table those thoughts.  
I also feel once I get this horrible MCAT out of the way I will get my confidence back.   This test is stressing me out.  I really wish I would have taken one of those prep classes right after I finished my pre-reqs and working full time.  I had so much more free time.  Oh well. It is what it is, I have to work from where I am not and move forward

My rugrat
she is driving me cray cray... we had a stint of where she was not getting her homework turned in.  So we have been working through that, and I am hoping its not going to continue to be an issue.  Her dancing never ceases to amaze me, she just seems to be getting better and better.

Life
once again, not much here... still seeing the trainer, but also still not 100% on all the work I should be doing on my own.

I guess that's about it...  basically a lot of the same... :)

Progress

Just thought I would document my progress...


School..

So my plan to improve my study habits helped some, I did do better on my last two test, but only one of them was an A, however the other was 20 points above the class average so that was not too horrible.  I have 2 more test, a project, and a few more homework assignments I may be able to still pull an A in that class.

Work..
still nothing here, still applying

The plan
Kind of wasting my money on that MCAT class, still not keeping up with the reading, pre-work, and post work.  I take my first full length practice test this weekend sometime.  I am going to try and just get as much as I can in, and then after finals hit it full-time ( 8 hrs a day) while out for the winter session.


Life..
Still working with the trainer, but once again kind of wasting my money because I am not eating right.   I don't pack enough food and snacks for days I am away from home all day.  I am also taking in too many simple carbohydrates.  I am also supposed to get in at least 2 days of cardio on the days I am not meeting with the trainer, and I have been very inconsistent with that.   And even thought I kind of hate it when I am in my sessions, I am that I went when its finally over.  I actually kind of miss it when I go a couple of days without it.


My rug rat
She is driving me crazy.  Running into the same problems as always being to social during class and inconsistent grades.  I am so tired of saying the same thing over and over.  She has had all electronic taken from her for at least 2 weeks.  So frustrating.  I know some of it is simple growing pains.  I told her tonight.. I could be more forgiving, if you had straight A's and some times talked in class, or had great behavior and every now and again had a bad assignment grade.  But you cant do BOTH.  She is smart and she has seen most of this material in her previous school.  So I know I am not asking to much of her.   Also its not like she is beating up kids or cursing out teachers so I don't want to be over dramatic.   Being a parent is ruff, especially if you want to try and do a good job... 


She has a dance convention this weekend Fri-Sun so we are going to be away from home all weekend, and I have to find a way to get my Micro lab report done, study for a test, and get a full length practice test in.

so basically I got a lot of the same going on, I am bit concerned I am trying to do everything, but not doing either of them well.
I just have to continue to re-focus myself and push for more self efficacy in my eating and study habits.

I have not given up yet, and I recognize my short-comings and try to address what I can. 
That has to count for something.

well I gotta try and get a few hours sleep before its time to get up in 5 hours for the gym... 

Registered

So I registered for the MCAT today... I will be taking it exactly 3 months from today.   I wish I could say I was ready, but I am not.  I still have not gotten on top of this MCAT class.  I am planning to keep trying to get ahead, and then hitting it super hard after finals.

I gotta get to bed, so I can make it to my 5am training session in the morning..

Progress... Kind of

So I don't really feel like putting in the effort to make this a clean organized post.  

I have like 10 mins before I head to class.   

I am just going list off stuff

So been off work for about 2 weeks now, appreciate the amount of time I have to get stuff done, but I know it's going to kick my butt pretty soon because I have no income.   I have continued to apply to others but have had no hits.  Which is a bit frustrating.  It's not like I am applying to experienced professional jobs.  Any who I digress

I have stepped up my study game, but still have more work to do.  The amount of work to get from B grades to A grades is an exponential curve.  I have to work on finding the right balance.  I end up studying 5-8 hours a day and then after a few days I end up avoiding anything school related for the next 24 hours and then I feel guilty.  It's like I have studying bulimia.  But I did make a better grade on my health Psyc test 2.  

I am still getting eaten alive by my MCAT class, I don't think I am going to be able to take the Januarry test.  I may have to push it to February, even though I am not going to have a lot if time to study, but I may only take 2 science classes and TA for one.  Don't know the plan yet. 

I have also improved my work out regularity.  I see a trainer 2x a week and work out on my own for 3 days(try really hard to hit this).   I went ahead and made the investment for the trainer because I have been unsuccessful in true transformation for so long.   Also like studying enough to go from B to A is hard, so is true lifestyle and body transformation.    You don't see the physical results with regular exercise and eating right very fast like you see with some crazy diet and/or pharmacology treatment.  It takes time, but of corse it's better for you, has increased adherence and leads to a true lifestyle change.  

My child still drives me crazy.   For example she tells me yesterday morning she has to be at school auditorium at 6:30 for her theatre show.  Seriously you have known for weeks and the first time I hear about it is the day of the event.  She actually told her dance studio director, but failed to tell me.    It's so frustrating being a parent, and I think doing it alone doesn't really help the situation.  But it is what it is. 

On a more positive note she did a great job in her show , and the little bit of her dances I have seen look amazing.   She is a talented kid.  I am blessed to have her. 

Well off to class.  On a side note they have commuter breakfast out this morning.  I will walk by and not make eye contact.  :-P

U Betta Work B!$@#

So while on my way from getting in my 35 min of cardio for the day, Ms Brittney comes on iTunes Radio (which I love) with her new song You Betta Work B.....!  

And I have decided that sometimes u need to hear that.  

I was a bit stressed out that my last two test were very lack luster even though they were above the class average.    My MCAT class is already kicking my butt, and I canceled my visit with my personal trainer yesterday. 

And for a short bit of time I started to feel like maybe I couldn't do it.  

Maybe I'm not smart enough.  

Maybe I will always be a chunky monkey. 

 I had at least two draft blog post started on the subject but couldn't put down my words.   

Now I know why.   Because I am just seeing it now. 

If I want to be an amazing physician who loves her jobs and her patients, and smiles even wider twice a week because it's my weekly community clinic visit...

If I want to feel better about myself physically and mentally.  Shop anywhere I want and have more confidence...

Then I better work B.....!

I better put the hours in for ALL classes

I better study for test weeks in advance

I better do my MCAT pre & post work

I better choose the better choices for snack dinner breakfast and lunch

I better get in my daily exercise 

I better push through the pain and fatigue when working with my trainer.  

If this stuff was easy then everyone would be doing.  

I refuse to give up because it's hard.  

I will kick life's A$$!!!!   

Drops mic and exits stage left. 

Areas For Improvement

Sooo...

I have come to discover if I have too much going on, I end up doing nothing... ( no bueno)

So...
class is going ok.  I think (know) I need to step up my study game.   So far my quizzes and the one test I have taken are bordering at low 90's, High 80's.  I can do better.


My last shift at work is on the 28th.  I have not found anything so far, but I have not looked very hard.  I am kind of considering not working, until after I take the MCAT.    Speaking of which I start the Kaplan MCAT class next week (2 nights a week until December).

I don't think I can really afford not to work, unless I take out the last of my savings,  but I also can not afford to not get good grades, or jack up my MCAT.  Decisions Decisions...  I got a lot of thinking to do...

My daughter is staying pretty busy herself, school is going really well, she made company and the student choreography show (may have mentioned earlier.. :P)

ok... I'm out for now..

Random

So just some random thoughts. 

1.  Parked in the parking garage today because there were like no spots within the first few blocks of school.  If I had 400 bucks a Semester to use as I wish I would totally buy a parking pass, it is so convenient. 

2.  When I see dudes with their pants hanging off their bottom, I just want to slap them in the back of the head.  That just looks disgusting to me.  

3. For some reasons hearing stereotypical "premeds" go on and on about stuff I want to shoot myself in the head.  Lol.  

Ok class is about to start. 

Fail!!!!

I have had a few peeks and valleys today.  Unfortunately it ended with a valley that I have allowed to distract me.  I think I am closing the laptop for the night.  I guess I will be double timing it tomorrow.  

I am considering skipping Cell Phys tomorrow.  Sitting in lecture seems like a humongous waste of time.   If I didn't have genomics (most info comes from lecture) I would just study at the local library.   Also I have a friend in the class I like to have a laugh with before class.  Guess that will be my motivation for now. 

Missing you

So I have found the one thing I miss the most so far since starting...

Reading... There are like 3 books (minimum) that are on my must read list that came out this month and last. 

I have been trying to curb my addiction by allowing 1 hour at night before bed and listening to audiobook while driving.  OMG that takes forever and it so hard to stop reading at night.  Lol

Class is kicking my but.  It's not hard, but I am falling behind in my reading.  I like to be ahead or at least on track with lecture. Right now I am a few sections behind in a few classes.  Which is why I feel so guilty about reading for fun.  

However I am off for the next couple of days so I plan to get on track.  

Ok.  Off to more homework. 

Why I cant study at home

So after already taking a break (which is a term I use loosely because that implies I have done work) to write my blog entry. I get a little hungry and decide to go ahead and grab me something to eat from the fridge.  While in the fridge I notice a spot that I will ashamedly admit has been there prior to me noticing it today ( how long is irrelevant... kind of :) )  Anyhow... so today of all days I decide I can no longer tolerate it, so I grab the Clorox wipes to clean it up...

Now 30 mins later...  I have wiped out the entire fridge inside and out, some cabinet doors, and the wall by the trash can.  And I only have one line to show for the 2 hours I have been sitting at the kitchen table at my laptop.

I think this in itself is reason enough for me to pay for a prep class.   I cant play around with MCAT study.   For class I have finite deadlines that eventually force me to get to it.  With MCAT its all or nothing.   I guess I will be signing up for that pre-med group on campus, so I can get that 450$ discount to Kaplan. 

Ok... I'm not getting up from this computer until its time to go get J from school.

I'm out... (again)

Quick Note

So in between my attempt to catch up on homework, and do laundry before I have to work all weekend,  I decided to make a note of something.  Mostly for me, but also for any people who know me that happen to follow my ramblings.

So... as I mentioned before I submitted my resignation to the scribe job.  My last day will be the end of September, but I wish it was tomorrow...  ( but that's another story). Most people who I talked to about this job knew how excited I was for the opportunity and how long I tried to get into the program.   So there has to be some WTH... leaving already  are you?

I mentioned I thought about this for a while.  And the question I want to address that I thought myself and that I am sure others would think.

Are you quitting just because you don't want to work?  You just quit a career, and got a taste of not being tied down to a regular job.  Is it just that? Do you just want to be a professional student?  Why did you leave your previous job if you were going to just quit this opportunity? ( maybe not those exact question, but you get the drift)

I would have to say "no".  LOL.  so that answer in itself is so bloated and holds so many extra words/thoughts... I will try and express it coherently.

1. For the most part I don't think any job is really going to make me happy until I am a practicing physician. (even then I don't expect some unimaginable euphoria.  Its going to have its on bumps and bruises, but its a major goal and career, I see myself making the most of)  but back to my point.

I don't think any job I get in the interim is going to be a job I love... or probably even a job I like.   But it needs to be a job that I can get something out of.   
- flexible schedule
- ability to make enough $$ to pay a majority of my bills
- experience improves my ability of applying to med school
- etc.

--- so with the scribe job, for the most part it was about the experience/exposure/connection.   And I think I have squeezed as much as I can out of it, while sacrificing the first 2 on the list above.
--- now with school starting and my lil one getting more busy and costing more money, I have to move toward facilitating the first two.

I am still looking for the right mix of what that is.  I am considering the fact that maybe a traditional steady job may not be the only option.   I may look into a combination of personal assisting, cleaning, baby sitting.   These give me quite a bit of flexibility, and I can manage the income by how much I take on.    When I need more $$ (mostly always) I can try to work more jobs, but when major exams come up, or I am falling behind I can take on less.
--   I am aware this option is pretty hard.
       If I go independent I have more flexibility and I keep more money from the job
       but I don't really have connections and it will take me time to get enough jobs to really pull in $

       If I go through a service, I wont have to worry about getting my name out there, and getting jobs on my own.  However I will have to give a portion of my earnings away,  And I may loose some of my flexibility.

--  I am also still looking at standard jobs.  But I know there will be a major commitment here and a challenge with flexibility.   But if the pay is high enough, maybe its worth the sacrifice.


ok.. so I got side tracked, and lost my train of thought...  :(   bottom line, I am not naïve enough to think I will find some perfect situation that will float me for the next 2 years before I walk into my first med school class ( yes I am owning it, I will be starting medical school in May 2015). 

But even though I know I have to find something,  that does not mean I have to accept just anything.

Now.... 
there is still the part about the experience/application meat  aspect of the scribe job.  
- No I don't assume I learned everything there was, in my 7 - 8 months there.  
But I did have enough of an experience to be able to say my time there was meaningful.  AND it allows me to continue to volunteer at the clinic and possibly any other health related or research related opportunities that come up.  So I will still be adding experience and reflections to my applications.   To be honest. I felt like I done more in my 2 shifts at the clinic than my months at the hospital.

Ok... I have to get back to studying... 

In conclusion...  I am glad I took the Scribe job, I am excited about what is to come up from other areas, and I have to continue to work on finding another source of income, because I have not found the trees that grow the green stuff.

The good, the bad, and the ugly...

Good:

Clinic shift was awesome today.  The surgeon was in got to see a cyst after it was removed,  missed the actual removal was working triage.  

And he invited me and another girl to attend a suture potluck in October.  

Bad:

I still have not caught up my reading, but my homework and quizzes are done

Ugly:

The lady called me about my resignation "request". Really?!?! A request. What are they going to do? Tell me I can't leave?

I didn't call back yet.  May do it later.  

Transitions

Just going to spend a few minutes on one topic today.

                                   ---------------------------   WORK ----------------------------

So I submitted my resignation to my scribe job yesterday.  So the 9/27/13 should be my last shift.  I am going to begin applying for some of the part time jobs that I didn't do before because of the changing scribe schedule.

So this decision stressed me out a lot.   2 main reasons

1. Application Stand point
- Of course the longer you do this job the better,

- I talked to a couple of docs and asked how bad it would look if I didn't stay a complete year.  And they both were like since you are doing other things like volunteering, and you have  school and a family, its understandable that you cant stay for 1 - 2 years like every one else.   One doc even said most docs don't know about scribes, she didn't until she worked at this place and they were required to use them.
 - So I am just going to have to have my story together if I am asked about why I  did it for less than a year.
-  I am going to continue working at the clinic, so that is a continuation of my exposure to health care, and it ties in to work I want to do after I graduate, so I feel like it would help facilitate the conversation of why I left.

- I also emailed my microbiology professor to ask if he has any low level task he needs done in his microlab.  I just want to get a chance to observe and just see what goes on there.  And maybe if I get to stay long enough I can learn a few things and see if research may be something I want to pursue. Unfortunately MD PHD programs are even harder to get into than regular MD programs, so its probably not really an option.

2. Money 
- Of course I have to have a job.
- But I have a month to find a replacement, and hopefully with a way better salary.
- I am going to keep applying, and I may email the secretary for this last job I applied to.  I am really not understanding why I am not getting any interviews.   Don't get me wrong.  I am not trying to sound conceited.  But these were the requirements for the last job.

• High School diploma
• Eighteen years of age
• Type a minimum of 40 wpm
• Knowledge of computers and office machines

----  um I think I meet those requirements.  I dropped my application off in the office, no fax or email, and I was dressed very professional, smiled, and made sure they writing was neat.

I don't know.  Maybe its just not the right opportunity for me.

Well I guess that's about it for today.  I have not studied at all this weekend.  I think working 6 out of the last 8 days just messed me up.  I have a lot to catch up on.  Good thing I am off next few days.

What's the Haps...

--------------------------     School  ---------------------------

 

So far things are for the most part ok here.  I have gotten a bit behind due to having  6 shifts this week.  (but 1 the week before WTF)

My initial thoughts on the classes

Micro: the teacher is a bit of a Smart A__ , but I believe if I stay on top of my outside reading, and do some quizzes or some type of refresher after each week, then I have the potential to do well in the class.

We start Lab next Monday, no thoughts on that yet.

 

Health Psychology: appears very doable on the surface, as long as I go to class and read.  But with most psychology type classes there is a bit of subjective or applicable thought process.  So I have to just stay sharp and catch the little things.   However there is a few opportunities for extra credit that I would like to take advantage of, they are mostly service learning, so my availability and work schedule play a big roll in that.

 

Genomics: so this class is a bit tricky.  I went in thinking it was going to be a difficult class, but then the 2 professors are very laid back and were like the book is optional, just focus on the slides and extra reading.   So on the first homework at a glance it looked simple, but when I went to do it, there just felt like there were some pieces missing.

 

Also the 2 exams are "take home" exams, which once again on the surface seems like a pretty decent set up, but I am not fooled. :)    So I went ahead and rented the eBook and plan on getting in there and reading before next Wednesday.

 

Cell Physiology: So this teacher is drives me a bit crazy. She tries so hard to be non-traditional in the fact that she just doesn't teach facts, that will be later regurgitated; she kind of just ends up rambling.  And she has said like 100x to ask questions in class instead of by email or dropping by her office, because her and her TA should not be getting emails regarding class topics, homework, etc.  And I can respect that but, its like just don't reply to the email, bring it up in class or something.   And the most important part is when people ask a question in class don't be and A-hole. I mean, its like with every question or response to one of her questions she has to say something that is borderline rude.

 

She is one of those people where someone one would be like.  "that's just the way she is",  " she is a really good person when u get to know her", "it just comes off that way but she really cares".... ETC..

 

I hate when people have excuses for someone else not being considerate of others. It just pisses me off.  Its not fair for some people to respect social norms, and others to excuse themselves from it.   I mean I know its apart of life, but I don't have to be ok with it.

 

anyway... as far as being successful in the class, its basically the same as others.  read material & and take notes before class, layer her random approach on top of the structured book approach.  We have multiple quizzes so I get a chance to asses my competency prior to the midterm and final, and I can adjust as necessary.

 

Overall, I do not think a 4.0 is out of reach this semester, but I am going to have to work my butt off for it.

--------------------------     Work  ---------------------------

 

So this situation here is a bit of challenge.   I am a bit concerned the impacts of the variable schedule, and you get what you get type thing going on. ( working 6 shifts one Sat - Sun schedule, then 1 shift the next week) Also the chief scribe and I had a small communication breakdown that almost lead me to just saying THWI.

 

There was a schedule shift, that did not fit my availability and she has just been a bit "not nice" for lack of better terms, because anything else would be a bit disrespectful. And I don't really appreciate that.  I do my shifts, and only request a trade when absolutely necessary, I have been told I do a good job, by the physicians I work with.  So I don't really see a need for this person to approach me the way they have been.

 

I am actually ready to resign to be honest.  They pay and the hours are a bit of a challenge and not really incentive to go above and beyond.

 

** update**

so I was ready to just resign today, but CS txt and it came off first as more of the same, but she expressed her challenges.  And I know she has a very hard situation.  But at the same time my goal in life is not to be a scribe.  And I will do what I have agreed to do, but when taking more impacts my long-term goal then its no longer an advantageous situation for me.

 

I don't want to just leave her in a lurch, and I wanted to complete my year because that looks better on application than 6 months.   But man it shouldn't have to be this hard.   I think I blame the company more than her. I don't really blame her she is trying to do the best with what she has.  The company is just trying to squeeze every inch of profit from this growing demand.   I don't know.  I will keep from making any immediate rash decisions.    

 

We eventually worked something out, (which still has me leaving class early) but It works.  I kind of fell like I settled a little bit.  I think because in my previous career I made so many excuses for staying where I was, and excepting a less than perfect situation for myself.   One month at a time. and so far after the update Sept schedule looks good.



 

 

--------------------------     The plan  ---------------------------

So this is definitely impacted by the above:

1.Volunteering

I started my volunteering.  I am at a free clinic for 3 hours on Thursday mornings.  I had a great first shift this week.

 

2. MCAT

- they had Kaplan representative on campus this week, I signed up for the free practice test, but have not went online to register. I am still not sure I can make the investment for the actual class

 

- one of the students told me a chemistry professor has a winter intersession class where he goes over a high level review of Chem I,II and Ochem I,II.   that would be an awesome class, but its Dec-January, which is a little late to for a January MCAT, and I would have to pay for the class out of pocket which would be the same as a prep class ( maybe a little less), and the chick didn't actually know the course number ( but I am sure I can find that out).  So not sure on this yet.

 

The two above are major reasons why its so hard to deal with the scribe related drama, I could resign from there, have more time to focus on these two above and making my grades, and just find me a more flexible job, with a higher pay.   But I am trying to be loyal to the program, that could care less about me as a person.   I'm not 21, I have something to do and not a lot of time to do it in.



 

 

--------------------------     My Rugrat  ---------------------------

So she is doing ok so far.  She made the Jr. Company at her new school.   So she has some afterschool dance related activity every day except for Sunday (all starting next week!!!)

 

She will also be auditioning for the Student Choreography Show, which are original dance numbers choreographed by students,  she developed a small group routine with 3 other girls, and I must say its pretty nice.   So hopefully she will be able to make the show.   Even if she does not I think it was a good experience for her.

 

Even with the increased after school commitment I think she will still be able to stay on top of her grades,  she has some time between classes and they have a homework area at the new studio.  Also I reminded her no TV or electronics till homework is done and room is clean, so she better get as much done before she comes home.  We will see how it goes. :)

 

--------------------------     Life  ---------------------------

As usually this is filled with the above,  and no major change

 

Still fighting my battle with healthy eating and exercise.

 

I have made a couple of friends at school, and I am thinking about joining the Pre Health society at school, I am a bit skeptical because, some pre-meds are pain in the butt.  But who knows I may hear some information I have not heard before or meet some cool people and/or future connections/colleagues

 

Ugh...

Already missing summer classes.  There is no where to sit and study.  And I have to park a half mile from the building.   

It's hot outside.  :P

Fall 2013

Lets get to it shall we.

------------------------School-----------------------

So Fall Semester starts for me tomorrow...
 

Class	Description	Days/Times
BIOL 3317-001	GENOMICS (Lecture)	MoWeFr 9:00AM - 9:50AM
BIOL 3301-001	CELL PHYSIOLOGY (Lecture)	MoWeFr 10:00AM - 10:50AM
BIOL 3444-004	GENERAL MICROBIOLOGY (Laboratory)	Mo 2:00PM - 4:50PM
BIOL 3444-002	GENERAL MICROBIOLOGY (Lecture)	TuTh 12:30PM - 1:50PM
BIOL 4357-001	HEALTH PSYCHOLOGY (Lecture)	TuTh 2:00PM - 3:20PM

 I am only taking 14 hours, but they are Jr./Sr. level, and I have to get in MCAT study, work and my little one so I am going to have to work pretty hard.

My Cell Physiology professor came out swinging, her TA sent an email last night that was almost two pages long, and I have a novel, and quiz all due by the end of the first week of class.  Also she wrote her own text books for the class...  And check out this paragraph from the class website...

Stop whining that something wasn't in the text because at least half of the questions will not come directly from the text but will be a problem to solve.  Learn how to make what you have learned useful.   I will tell you ALL you should know about glucose transport proteins but I will ask you what happens to your blood glucose level after you eat a doughnut or a bagel for breakfast. And yes, I do disconnect the dots on purpose, that is how learning works.   Act like adults and get used to how questions are answered and problem solved in “real life” and jobs.

Now I get it, there are a few whiny kids who are a little spoiled and don't want to work for the grade... but dang.. she put it in writing.. LOL...  But to be honest I am kind of excited for the class, I think I am going to learn a lot, and I have read the 1st two chapters of the required book (not the textbook) we have to read, and so far its pretty interesting.

----------------------Work-----------------------

Umm still trying to hang in there. I am looking forward to reaching my year, so I can move on.

I have applied to a few on campus jobs, for during the week, while I am on camps.  So far no hits.

I'm wondering should I remove some things from my resume, because I can't imagine why I am not qualified for an 8$/hr. "office assistant" job.

I just need something flexible, where I can keep a couple shifts a week at the hospital, get in class and studying, and make a little extra change.

ugh... frustrating.

----------------------The Plan--------------------

So the 2014 MCAT schedule still isn't up yet, but for the 2013 the first exam was the 3rd Friday of January, so I am going to assume it will be somewhere around the 3rd week in January.

So I think I am going to go on a 10 week study plan starting in October.  That way I can have enough time to take as many practice test as I can and fix as much as I can before January.

I still did not do any pre-cal prep...  I will start on Monday, between cell phys and Micro lab, and I think on Tue/Thur I am just going to campus after I drop of J at school and just use that as study time.

I think I am going to make a detailed plan tomorrow, and lay out Cal CLEP prep/MCAT study/Class study time.
 

-----------------------My Rug rat----------------------

She starts school on Monday, and Dance the following week.   If she makes the ballet company at school, she will have dance or dance related activity every day of the week except for Sunday.

She came back from her summer dance camp with a pretty defined 6 pack.. lol.  and going to bed at a decent time and waking up early.   I think they are both slowly fading.. LOL.

She is also eating my pockets inside out very quickly.  Between school supplies, dance supplies, and stuff...  I am going broke way faster than I would like...  ( hence why I need the second job)

 

---------------------------------Life-------------------------------

 Ugh... nothing much here,  I am in a life long war against eating right and exercise and so far I have lost the last few battles.

I wish I had a morning work out partner for a little accountability.  I keep saying I want to go at like 5 in the morning M-F, because I know I am available then, (even on days where I work 6p-4a).  It works when I am getting off at 4a.  But when I am at home in my warm bed, its SOOOOO HARD to get up.  And I have no motivation to go get on boring gym equipment.
I have considered some of the boot camps or group specialty gyms,  but 100$/month is just not in my price range.

I will figure it out eventually.

hmm... I think that's it...

Go Shawty It's Your Birthday.

So today is my birthday.  I hit the big 3-4.   Can't believe I am so old.  (I know it's all relative) but still can't believe so much time has passed and I'm still trying to make a place for myself in this world

So anywho.  Not a lot going on

School starts back on Wednesday.  And i still need to study for the calc CLEP test. I am going to start on Monday see if I can take it before the end of September. 

Hmm.  Guess that's all I got.  Think I am going to start a new round of MCAT Study in September.  Pick a day after class to go to library.  I have applied for a few on campus jobs to earn a bit extra money.   

My little one starts school a week from Monday.  She is mostly ready. I still need to hem up her uniforms. But I think the rest is done.  

So I guess basically just waiting for September.  That's when things get real. Working.  Full time class. Dance. MCAT. Life.  

Well my pizza order is up.  I'm out.  :)

It's official.

They finally posted grades for the last test.  I got another A, which means I don't have to take the final and I get an A in the class!!!  

So three A's this semester. I'm hoping to maintain that trend throughout the fall and spring.  

I'm celebrating with a movie checking out the new Percy Jackson movie. 

My little one is out of town so I have some free time.  I plan to get ready to take the pre-cal prep before class starts in Fall. 

Ok. So typing this is interfering with my popcorn eating.  Gotta run. 

Dangerous situations

So I am writing this post outside a convenience store @ 0215 (2:15am). And then it comes to me WTH are you doing this how people get robbed/killed.

-----  ok so I am back. ---- 

It's now 2:45 am and I have made it to 24 hr Fitness

I have a few things I wanted to say but they are not organized in my brain so I think I am going I go with my "subject area " post today so I don't ramble.

----- ok so it actually like a day and a half later,  I found it very difficulty to try and type on my iPhone while on the elliptical machine.  I actually hate not finishing a post because there are so many things that I don't end up saying, either because I forget, or I think it through and decide not to post it.

Work

-   I have gotten off like 1 - 2 hours early my last 4 shifts so that's pretty awesome.   

Things are pretty much the same. Tonight was pretty busy. Not a lot of pts just complex cases that require a lot of back and forth and we moved pretty quickly from room to room

I put in my availability for September and it looks like they are going to have me working mostly weekend because I was only available like 1 or 2 time slots during the week.  I also requested no more than 10 shifts.  I got a bit worn out this summer and I only did on avg 2 -3 shifts a week. (sometimes more)

School

- so this is going ok.  I basically just try to get from one test to the next.  

- registered for the fall still have not been able to get into human anatomy class looks like I am stuck with the micro class I have now.  

The plan 

-  I plan to register for MCAT this week

Also,  I think I continue to learn more that makes me more comfortable with my decision to not go directly for PA school.  The new PA who was a previous scribe, talks to me sometimes about how things are going for themselves and just based off the way I think, and how much information and understanding I like to have to feel comfortable in what I do, I think it would be a very stressful job for me in the first few years. 

I know I still won't know a lot as a intern, but you have an additional 1 - 2 years of training and seeing just different examples of different things.   Let me emphasize I DO NOT think that PA's are incapable or bad or anything like that.   I only feel for myself I want a deeper more specific knowledge base so I can work more complicated scenarios.


** update**  so while reading through this so I can actually publish (2 days later) , I decided to go ahead and register for the MCAT so I can add it as a milestone to today's post.  But for some freaking reason, they only available test dates are August and September.  O_O  WTH!!!.   You cant tell me all the January - March slots are taken.   I need to get into the January slot so I can I have my Scores available for the Medical Science program.  

And of course there is no number to call, and it is not answered in the FAQ.   This is stressing me out. I kind of want to skip class now and figure it out, but I didn't go yesterday.   Arggh...


**** 2nd UPDATE ( 5 mins after publishing)   I AM an IDIOT!!!!*****
so apparently 2014 dates are not listed yet, and for some unknown reason, I forgot January marks the beginning of the new year.. LOL ...   well at least I know I need to keep my eyes out for the new 2014 schedule guess I will follow them on twitter.. :)  Gotta love social media... great for my forgetfulness.

I did however end up ordering an MCAT book with 146 questions and explanations .  Time for me to get on this.  This is the year!!!

My rug rat 

So she is doing pretty well.  With a summer full of dance and then off to a two week away dance camp on Sat. 

She is mostly ready for upcoming school year.  She is moving to a new dance studio and school again this year but she is really excited about both.

Life 

Ugh... this is consumed with the above.  I keep trying to do better at working out, and getting out, but I have not.
I am reading a new release of one of my favorite books.  I have to be careful, because I have to make sure I don't neglect my class reading, because I can read a good book for 24 hours straight... LOL.

ok.. I gotta go to class, there are few things I wanted to jot down, but I don't want to wait another day to publish...

3 down 1 to go

Well kind of.  2 to go if I didn't do well on #3

So I took test #3 today.   Not sure how it went.  I studied pretty hard but I don't think enough.  I think I need I get to a deeper level of understanding by Friday and then spend the weekend getting in and understanding the differences between the information in each chapter and the similarities.  If it was just vocabulary and basic knowledge I would probably be ok. 

But I think i get hit in some of the application because two things could be similar but one could inhibit / activate one smaller/different pathway. 

Any who I only work Monday and then in off until Friday so I am going to try really hard to try for a hundred in test 4.  If I get an A on this one from today and then 100 on Test 4 I can get out of the final.  

---- so apparently I didn't publish this post earlier and I am too lazy to ready through and see if I had a thought to finish.   I have another unrelated post ---

Untitled ...mysterious or lazy

So I have been sitting in the break room at work because the ED is slow and they apparently told my doc to come in later.   

+'s

I get paid for doing nothing

-'s

I most likely won't be going home early because we are starting late

We are going to be working super hard for the time we are here to make up for starting late

I would have totally rather used my extra time sleeping since I worked the 6p shift last night 

I don't have my study material so I am wasting time watching TV

Something is rancid in the fridge and Someone is opening it every 10 mins.  

Argh.  

Fail

I keep falling asleep while I am trying to study so I decided to give up, but now I feel awake.   I am going to set my alarm for 8am and just get back at it in the morning.   I have to work tomorrow 6p -3a and Sun 9a -7p.  I think I will probably get a couple hours in on Sunday night and then just head to school early on Monday and study and read the chapter we will be going over in class after the test.  

No use in keep looking at it now and not really learning anything.  I should not have had a drink at dinner.  They always make me sleepy. 

Man I'm tired

So I got off an hour early tonight 2a instead of 3.  So that's always awesome.  I am really tired this week and I don't know why.  I starred a multi-vitamin this weekend and it feels like its doing the opposite of what I want it to do. I even got the one with Iron even though it gives me stomach aches and headaches. I was hoping I could find mor energy to fit more things in. 

Anywho.  So they are getting another PA who was also a previous scribe.  That's pretty cool to see they maintain a good relationship.  I'm still not thinking of taking the PA route yet.  

Ok. Guess I should stop blogging and drive home.  This is a good opportunity to get some sleep and wake up an extra hour early to get some reading in. :p

Not to bad

So I got a 95.  1.5 of those points were from the short answer extra credit at the end of class. 

I had to study very hard to get that grade.  I guess I am just going to have to stay on it.   I have 5 shifts this week. I don't know how I am going to make this happen.  I also skipped class today. I was tired and didn't really feel like driving over. 

But did I study or read.  No.  I went to see the Conjuring.  It wasn't too bad.  

I will get on it tonight though.  (The studying). --- after my 6p - 3a shift

 

Improvement.

So this test felt a lot better as I was taking it. I don't think I mad a 100% but I am hoping its an A.  There are only 45 questions , so 2 or 3 wrong answers take you out of the running pretty quick.  They are supposed to be offering a couple of 1pt bonus questions after class.  And hopefully there will be a few points given for problems where over half the class got it wrong. 

Feeling Gulity

So I am feeling a little guilty.  I am leaving work a little over 2 hours early.  The doc I was working with asked me when I worked again.  And was like Monday but i have 3 shifts in a row, which sucks because I have to get in 4 chapters and test studying.  And she was like, I don't know how you guys scribe and go to school full-time.   You should just go home so you can study.  O_O.  I was like oh.  I'm good , and then I tried to steer away from the leaving and just talk about how I liked the class and so on. She was like oh no, you go study. I was a Dr. for 25yrs without a scribe I can mange.  Lol. So needles to say I was like Okay.  Thanks. :). 

One more reason to make an A on the test so I can, let her know. She helped me out  :)

I have been studying, but I never know if its enough based on the last test.  I am going to keep at it till Monday.  

This is salvagable

So they finally posted the scores.  79!!!   OMG...   The good thing is the drop the lowest of this five. 

And this WILL BE my lowest.   So today and yesterday, I didn't go to class, I thought I would try the self study instead of wasting 2 hours in class +1 hour travel time for them to read charts directly from the book.

** actually the above statement is only kind of true... on Tuesday I was so bummed out about my test, I decided to boycott on the way to class ( had my books and everything) and decided to go see Pacific Rim, which was FRICKIN awesome by the way.  

But then I felt super guilty, and read/studied for like 4 hours today before I had to go to work.

I don't think I will skip class anymore.  .. It actually takes FOREVER to get through a freaking chapter and take detailed notes, and I get a little bored with that.  Also I am afraid I am going to miss something when I miss class.

So I will be returning tomorrow, and they are going over Exam I so I have to see what the deal is there.

I also have to  put in some overtime reading this weekend, because I have 4 night shifts next week, so I will basically have no time to study except before class.

I also have to find a regular time to get to the gym.... Ugh...  you would think things would be more simple not having a full time job,  but it seems like I have more things to do.

I tried running again this morning, and my hip started hurting immediately, so I walked and rode the stationary bike which are both hella boring,  So I have to find some alternative for that, since my work schedule makes me miss my hip-hop class this week and next week.  :(

Well its 2:30 am, and I just got home from work.  I need to go to sleep so I can wake up.. go to gym, go grocery shopping, and then head to library for some pre-class studying.

I will make a Frickin A in this class
I will work out at least 4 times this week

I said it and therefore it WILL BE.

IM OUT...

Well that sucked

So the test today did not go well. I don't know what was going on there.  I felt like all my studying was useless.   I am really going to have to re-evaluate my study strategy for this class.  At least they drop the lowest exam grade, but that also means I have to take the Frickin comprehensive final.  (Booooo). So my day has been sucky, since then.  I was not quite ready to end my A streak.  

Also I hate classes with no homework.  You don't get an idea of how they test or what's important.  And you don't get any cushion points.    140+ pages of content with 48 questions on the exam??!?!?  You have memorize everything and hope it's relevant. 

It's amazing the ups and down from one day to the next.   I stopped by the cupcake store to by a couple cup cakes and stopped by the bar for a drink.   I think I am handling stress in a negative way.   Story of my life.   :P

Ugh 

Guess I shouldn't complain.

So...  Today is the day I was complaining about in my last post.  Actually the shift turned out pretty well, I think I have found the best way to have a good shift with the doc I had.  I also got to see my fave doc and wish her a happy vaycay and I got off work an hour and half earlier.  

Also... I was able to get in some studying between pts.  I feel really good about my test tomorrow.  

Annnnddddd.  One of the nurses , has a daughter who went through Scribe U recently and working at a hospital out of state.  On her first day she saw 2 chest tubes and a Pelvic exam of a 300lb woman with and an STD...!!!   And the Cheif Scribe passed out on one of the chest tubes. Then halfway through the shift the ER doc (only 1 doc from 1pm - 1am) gets a call that his 2 young daughters were in an accident and intubated on the scene and he immediately falls to his knees screaming and crying and then to the floor. All the pts came out looking and asking questions.   On her second day she worked with a doc who the the nurses call Dr. D!$&.  And he was cursing and talking mean to the Cheif scribe.  

Her first two days were filled with more drama than my last 5 months.  I am totally blessed that my bad days were nothing like that. 

Hmm. Ok. So dinner and reading happened between now and that last sentence.  I don't know what else I was going to say.  But I think the above was plenty.  Overall today ended up being a pretty decent day, and things aren't as bad as they seem sometime.  

WTF

So I spent half the morning putting in brain terminology and explanations into quizlet.com for my test on Monday only to go take a picture of a diagram in the and return to find them NOT THERE....  I was so freaking frustrated.   And I was putting them in on my iPad so I had some carpel tunnel going on also.   

So needless to say I won't be redoing them.  I am just going to use the other 3 chapters I have on there and my book.  

This class is going to be a challenge.   There is a lot of information to fit in and they don't have the "fill in" notes that the other teaches had this summer so you don't get that familiar with the notes during the lecture.  You just basically follow along.   I also don't have a study group. A girl from class took a few numbers and was supposed to text with some study times.   I never got a text needless to say.   

I also loose a study day.  Someone text me to ask me to help with a shift.  I should have declined but I felt bad.  I really hate when I get called or a text.   It's like if you posted on the web and I didn't take it, I don't really want it.  

And I know that sounds mean and selfish, but I end up taking shifts that I shouldn't.   But in the more positive note maybe they will be more willing to help me out if I need it in the future.  

Well I'm about to check out Grown Ups 2 with my little one.   I was hoping she would have chosen Despicable Me 2 instead.   :) 

What happened to my awesome day???

So I think I got a little too bragy yesterday.    Ended up having a ruff day at work, I worked with a doc I only worked with once on one of my training shifts 5+ months ago and I had Chief Scribe watching my shoulder for a random audit.   They were both very nice, and I didn't have any major problems.  I did have a couple of miss-types, but it stresses me out when someone is staring over my shoulder.  

Then in class today, we didn't have the teacher from yesterday. It was a different person with a strong accent, and who talked really fast.   So I had a bit more trouble remaining engaged.

All in all, those are very small issues. I just need to make sure I am read up before class, so I can have a better idea of whats going on.   I did do a quick outline before class and that helped.

 I think instead of writing separate notes in word and the pdfs. I am going to read and fill out some Quizlet.com flash cards.  That way I can have it available to study during breaks at work and random places.

 Anywho...  
 I need to write down my updated plan, but I gotta get some reading done.   But i am off for the next couple of days. I will get it done soon.   

Good Stuff

So Brain and Behavior started today, and  so far I am absolutely loving it.   I love the material and the main guy who does the lectures (class taught by 3 Phd students) is a former systems engineer from EDS.  I talked to him for a few minutes during the break.  We kind of had a similar thought process on the transition so that was cool.  

Second good stuff is I am eating some awesome Tourchey Taco queso since I had a couple minutes between class and work. 

I actually brought my BB txt into read, but between the blues music playing and scuffing down corn chips and queso I have not made much progress.   So I just decided to blog. (Because that's productive).  Lol.  

Anywho a quick back track to the student teacher.  His area of research right now is the impact of nutrition on fetal development.    It sounds so awesome I wanted to ask if they have any volunteer opportunities in their lab, but figured I may ease into that later. 

I wish I had started my science career from the beginning (for many reasons) but in context to this i would have liked to spent some time in research and possibly do a MD/PHd tract.   I have heard varying comments on it but I would love to do a little research, a little teaching, a little pt care and a little outreach.    That would be ideal.   I may still be able to make it workout, who knows.    

Well I got get my but to work.  :)

Until next time.  

Man... im tired

So...   I worked 5 straight 6pm - 4am shifts this week, and then had my Biostats final this morning on 3 hrs. off sleep.  I have to admit I feel a bit drained.

However I am proud of myself because I still went to all my Hip Hop workout classes including the one tonight.

And.. I got a 98 on my final and  a 96 in the class for the semester.   

Brain and behavior starts tomorrow :)   Looks like there is going to be a lot of reading, the print in this book is sooooo small. 

This summer is really flying by.

I got my brain and behavior book from Bookrenters.com.  It's in really good shape, I got it in a pretty good time frame, and looks pretty easy to return.   So far I am satisfied. 


Also my fave doc offered to give me a LOR.  I was supper exited about that.  Now I just need to try and find another professor LOR. 

i think i am finished for the day... going to watch some Warehouse 13 and go to sleep.

Scribe Envy!

So first off today we had a little food party for the 4th of July.  I brought white truffle Mac and Cheese that I made for the first time.   Everyone who tried it seemed to like it.  So that was pretty awesome.   Looks like I have a new Thanksgiving dish.   Although it is a bit expensive that white sharp cheddar is a little more pricey than the orange cheddar. 

Anywho...

So I decided to make a confession tonight. 

I am working with my Fave doc tonight and one of the newer scribes (new to our hospital, but previous scribe somewhere else) comes in to the area we are working in.  And everyone just starts chatting and laughing with him like they are old friends.  And I have noticed all the other docs even the "hard" ones all chill and chat with him like they are Besties!

 

He is a nice guy and even complimented me in my Mac and cheese.   So I'm sure his fan fair is well deserved.   But I have to admit I am a little bit envious of his magic.   I guess I have never been the person that everyone loves or chats if up with so easily, I feel like I have to work hard for it.   

I don't know.   I don't wish he wasn't cool, I just wish I was.  

My brother has that "thing" were he just makes friends with anyone and he spends 5 mins with them and then they ask about him every time they see me. Lol

Ok. That's all I got.   We may go home Early so that's pretty cool.  

Happy 4th of July!!!

So while trying to fit in a bit of studying for my final on Monday before I head to work, I decided to make a pit stop and jot down some thoughts...

I downloaded the blogger app on my phone so I could make smaller post whenever  a few things came to my mind...  but I have not really been doing that lately.

I had a plan to do it yesterday while waiting for J to get out of dance camp, but one of the moms got all Chatty Kathy with me so I ended up not posting.    So usually I sit outside in the car when I am waiting because:
1. The couple of studios we have danced at don't have the best set up for more than a couple of parents at a time.
2. I would usually rather read, do homework, or watch a TV episode on my phone than have a conversation that will be interesting for the first 2 minutes then slowly dissolves into moms subconsciously (I hope) attempting to one up each other.

So yesterday, I was actually in the studio because this studio that she happens to be taking a camp at has a very nice set up with couches, tables, TVs, and Game systems.  So I went in to do a little studying while I wait.   Then here comes a mom asking me random questions, come to find out she is from the studio we are currently at, and left on bad terms.  Ugh awkward conversation

ANYWHO...  my point, I need to start using my app to jot down small things, instead of trying to fit all I can remember between post into one. 

For today, I think I am going to do random thoughts that have been on mind and then updates.

Random thoughts.
WTH is up with grocery prices, man I go for 1 week of food mostly for the Kid and I am spending like 80 to 90 bucks,  and it still seems like I don't have everything I need.   Sometimes it seems like it would be cheaper to just eat out more.  ( not like super expensive places, but subway and taco bell)

I HATE the mouse pad on laptop,  It never R click or L click when I need it to, and it randomly throws me to various places on the screen when I am typing ( I assume I am grazing it with my thumb) , but I don't want to disable it because it does wore pretty well for scrolling... Ugh

My SPELLING sucks... I guess I was ruined by MS Office and the red underline, but some docs I work with stand over my shoulder when I type and so I don't really get the time to think about what I am writing or look up new med terms/medications really quick on Google and I look like a total dumbA$$!!! 
I need to find some online program to practice.


Updates
- work is cool, picked up a couple of extra shifts this month because some of our old scribes are leaving/have left and apparently a new scribe or 2 decided this wasn't going to work out for them, so I decided to take one for the team and pick up a couple where I could.   I don't really want to jeopardize my study time, but I could also use the extra money.
I have not really seen anything really cool or impressive yet, unfortunately I really couldn't actually say if I did... :(

- school is also cool, have my Biostats final on Monday , I have a good chance of maintaining the A. I am trying to fit in a few hours between my weekend shifts to make sure I am comfortable with the material.   
Brain and Behavior starts Tuesday, looking forward to that.  I am hoping my book gets here on time.  I checked the delivery status and apparently it made it to the local USPS yesterday.  I should definitely have it by Tuesday.

I guess that's enough for today...