Why is it so hard to come up with a headline

Work
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This is going ok, today was a pretty decent day.  Our regular office staff was not there, nurse and front desk chick were not there.  It was actually kind of nice, because even when things got a little crazy every one was still workable so that helped kind of keep a lid on the crazy.

School
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- I need to check to see if the Spring schedule is up at the community college.

- did some work on the research paper ( some busy work mostly)

The plan
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Still have not registered for the MCAT.  My paycheck goes SUPER fast, so I am just going to have to bite the bullet and spend the money on the next check, I think my last day to register is like early next month.  

I went to a Physician Assistant info session today.  It was mostly what is available online, they have an open house in November I singed up for.  I am going to seriously consider that as an options.

I had a friend look at my personal statement.  She gave me some good input.  I tried to work on it, but I think I got a little intimidated.  I am really struggling with the show vs. tell of the paper.

I did a high level replan..
1. register for MCAT ( October 4th)
2. Submit Med school apps ( 2 - 3 schools)
3. Intense MCAT study 3 hours a day MCAT section test (M-F) , full length test Sat & Sunday
4. MCAT  November 7th
5. Register for A&P 1 & Pre-cal  - December
6. Pick up some GRE books from Half-Price
7. Start/develop GRE plan (before Spring semester starts)
8. Take A&P II & Calculus- Summer
9. Take GRE - Summer
10.  Apply for Fall graduation at UTA
11. Start PA application April
12. Submit PA application ( NLT May 15)

Next is to work on my detailed MCAT Study plan.  I think I am going to just take a full length and see where my lowest grades are and focus on those areas first.

My kid
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she was doing so well, but she has returned to her old ways, and failing to turn in work and making crappy grades on quizes.
She just got her replacement phone after being without one for almost a year.  But I took all electronics tonight so once again I am back to paying money for nothing, I also took away her new shoes.  And I told her if she brings home another F she looses her solo on the competition team this year.  I am over this BS. 

Very disappointed with her right now, and its just a level of stress that I was hoping not to have to deal with.


Life
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not where I want to be. I have basically gone down to working out once a month.  Its so crazy its almost like an outer body experience.  I wake up at 5, think about how fat and gross I am, then lay back down thinking how much of a looser I am for not going to work out.
I have issues.. I know..  I think I am afraid of success, or so scared of failing I quit before I get close.  I was doing amazing during the summer, but I let life and stress slow me down, and now my scrubs are getting tight!!!.   ARGHHHHH