Driving fast and getting no where...

I cant believe its almost December.  This year has flown by.

Its been almost 2 years since I started this journey.

I sometimes feel like I have stalled especially since I did not get into that post bacc program, and I did not apply this year.

anywho...

My progress.

school.
- my local community college has open registration 11/22/14. 
Probablly going to register on  payday 11/28/14, hope there are some classes left.  I am going to have to take AP I all day Saturday or Monday & Wednesday night.

I started to toss around the idea of retaking O-chem because I got a C in the lecture and A in the lab, but for some reason they don't combine those grades like most, so I have C in one my pre-reqs.  So it could be replaced by the time I apply next year if I retake it in the fall.  Not sure about this option yet. There are fewer evening options, and no Saturday options.

The plan.
I did not take the MCAT last week,  I ended up breaking out in hives AGAIN the weekend before that lasted most of the week.  My allergist thinks I may have an allergy to ASA & NSAIDs exacerbated by stress.   The first time I had it I had been taking BC powder and this last time I had been taking Aleve.

I think my extreme aversion to that test combined with my stress to try and fit in studying on top of dealing with 3 pre-teens and dance stuff over the weekend just made for a bad recipe.

I went to a PA open house out my local school.  It was very informative and interesting.  I will shadow a PA next week at work. I am really trying to make that a viable option.   I think I could have a decent chance of getting into a program.  But its pretty competitive as well.   My local PA school had like 5000 applicants with only 75 seats to fill. 

I have to get the GRE done by December 2015, so I have a year to get on that...  I am thinking once I get back into school mode in the spring I can start the GRE study plan.

Work
about the same.  I subbed for another scribe and this Dr.  let me stay in the room for exams.  So I got my fair share of old man junk for the year..  lol   It was pretty interesting though I got to see some post op incisions and the dreaded DRE...  (digital rectal exam)

Life
blah...

Kid
doing pretty decent.
made "crew" at the convention
not working my nerves as much ( it comes in waves) lol.

thats about it...   If anyone happens to read this... I wish you a Happy Holiday Season!

I should not be here right now...

So I have started to go over a practice test... and I got scared.  Started with physical science my roughest topic.  I have not been able to wrap my head around a study schedule.  I think after finishing a couple of passages I am going to do that tonight...


Rough Draft.

Friday October 24  - Study time 5:30 - 8:30
 --  30 min formal reveiw
-- physical science AAMC test & go over explanation
-- content review of problem areas
--- 8:30 - 10:00 ( work reduced shift - get Jordyn Home & in bed)

-- 10p - 12a
   --- Physical science AAMC test w/explanations

Saturday 10/24 -
-- there are a couple of hours where I have to shuttle Jordyn
-- but I have study blocks from 11- 2, 4 - 8, &10p - till my eyes wont stay open

Sunday 10/25
-- work from 8 - 12, Kidd stuff 12 - 2
-- practice test and content reveiw 2 - 10p

Monday - Friday
back to the 5:30 - 8:30, 10 - 12
-- will pick focus test based off my weekend performance

Saturday 11/1 - Out of town for convention, but going to lock myself in hotel room, while my rugrat is in class, only leaving to get her downstairs to class, get her lunch, and pick her up.
May do a break with the moms later that evening, if I have gotten through at least 2 full test.

Sunday - going to do as much as I can, will need my ear phones, I think I may see if i can pay the extra fee for the 5 pm check out.

Monday - Thursday... same as above.

I think I will stop Thursday... and just write down formulas, all day.

I usually do my best when I have little time.  I think I should also push myself to get in some work out time, to keep my energy up, and reduce my stress.

Are you kidding me right now???

So I went register for the January MCAT.  No available dates.  I know its my fault but , really no open seats in ANY STATE???.  


There was one day that had seats and guess what day it is.   November 7th.  yes... in 2 weeks.


Guess who will be praying and studying every available minute between 3 jobs and kid crap.

This chic!

Patience

This is something I have to work on.  I like to always work toward something specific.  I like to finish things and move on.

at this point I don't feel like I am doing anything. 


I was really planning on applying this year as part of my original plan.  And at first i was ok with that.  But then i got frustrated with finances, my test, and this job and decided I was going to try and rush and get an app in.

I have come back to reality and realized I need to return to my updated plan and apply 2015 cycle
1. with my stats I need to apply early, why wast money if my chances are low
2. improving my MCAT improves my chances, and I don't want to be rejected again with nothing
3. I can dually apply to PA & NP program and that will be my back up and I will be going to one or the other
4. Money, I have to find a way to get this together.  I need it for secondaries, travel ( if i get interviews), transcripts. etc.  ( I need to start me a pot and start stashing away).  I'm thinking stashing away every other weeks cleaning money since I get cash.
5. If i am going to work this frustrating job at this Dr. Office I should at least get an LOR out of the deal.
6. It will give me enough time to apply for fee assistance with applications.


I checked local community college for AP class they still don't have schedule up.
I am about 78% sure I will be registering for my MCAT today, hopefully it lets me choose a day in January with the fee assistance program.

Baby Steps

Quick update before I get to bed.

I think I am finished with my personal statement.  I have had at least 5 or 6 people look at it.  And thanks to one of my best friends who has been extremely supportive throughout my entire journey it does a pretty good job of getting my story across.  Thanks friend!  You Rock(y)!


I will be submitting my application this month, I don't care what I have to put off to do it.   So I need to renew my Interfolio account to send my LORs and transcripts.   And I need to narrow down my school list and budget required to get everything done.  Then come secondaries...  I also think it may be too late for application fee assistance.  You have to mail it in, and they say it could take up to 4 weeks.

I have been putting in a good bit of work on the research paper, mostly verifying info and calculations, but I actually enjoy that a bit more. I get it and I can make progress.  Just reading through all those journals was driving me cray cray.  I don't think I had a strong enough foundation in the topic to feel confident in my research (without help from a grad student)


Today was a pretty decent day today, so I will keep my complaining short. 

I did take a look at the Jr. College schedule, but didn't do to much more.  I start to look at the cost of classes and just decided to wait until I have submitted apps.  I have to come up with a plan to get out of my moms place.  Now its looking like I will probably be here until January.

Its slow but progress is being made.