Wednesday, June 25, 2014

The Universe hates me...

So it's been a while.   For the most part I just resigned myself to going back to work and leaving this dream behind.    So I have applied to a bunch of jobs and actually had an interview for a process engineer position which is similar to some of the work I did before.   I was a little concerned leaving the interview because it was one of the least favorite task I had in the past, and during my interview they repeatedly stated how there were no processes in place and the people there were very resistant to change.    But I just kind of focused on getting a paycheck.    So that's what I have been focusing on just trying find a job and work on finding happiness in where I was. 

Until last night.  A young lady who I used to work with asked me to meet her to discuss her thoughts of leaving work to go to medical school.   So I spent some time sharing with her my experience. And I feel like I may have highlighted the harder parts More than I should have.   But I wanted to be vary clear how it is not an immediate gratification and that it's extremely competive as well as it does not guarantee happiness.   Now that I look back I wonder who I was trying to convince.   

Anyway that was not that big of a deal.  What was the hard part was the call I got this morning from a urologist office that wanted me to interview for a full-time scribe job.   Which would be 8-5 for one or two specific doctors with a better pay then my last one.... Basically the exact position I was looking for at the end of the semester!!!! 

Why does my life work like this?  

So now what.  

Do I continue on the path that gets me money now and keep looking for a job, or do I use this as my opportunity to make a little more money te get me through on the originally journey. 

Why was I leaving? 
Money. 

Does the new opportunity change that?
Not really, it would defiantly be more than I made before.  But it won't return me to the more comfortable life I had before. 

I think what I will do is go with the interview.  Make a budget of must haves and see what is the least amount of money I can make to take care of bills that I have and pay off some debts.  May have to stay with my mom for another month or two. (Tears).   
And if I get offered enough to make it work I think I will stay with the plan.   

And the way my luck works as soon as I am 2 weeks into the job I am going to get     end up getting calls from the "professional" jobs I applied for offering a pay that will solve all my problems. 

Ugh.