Monday, March 17, 2014

Started from the bottoms... Now I'm... Wait.. I'm still at the bottom.

So I had my first full training shift at the resturaunt yesterday.  

It wasn't horrible but Food service was the main reasons I knew I had to go to graduate from college.   

This resource and availablity situation is really tryin me right now.   I am stressed out worrying about bills and getting Jordyn taken care of when I can't do it.  

I have plant science test tomorrow that I can do everything else but study for.   I look over it but then I'm like ugg. 

And we have first competition starting on Thursday during the day.  I'm like WTF!!! Are these people doing scheduling dances that early on a weekday.   

So now I have to miss almost all my classes and then ask another parent to let J hang out with them while I go to lab because I am the only TA there on Thursdays and my grade freaking depends on it.  

I know I chose this.  I know it's my own bed to lay in, but it still sucks sometime. 

I really need to hear back from this program to know if I got in or not.  I have to find something specific to plan around so I won't go crazy.  

If I do get in I have to move into a cheaper place or find a roommate .  I can't afford to work another job and pass those class.  

I keep thinking about getting a place with my mom. She would help me with Jordyn and we can help each other financially but  our situation gets really stressful and I can't add that to school.   

Plus I don't want her to loose her current place if I have to move for med school and then she is left high and dry trying to move back into a smaller place.    

My life is kind of driving me cray cray right now...  And sometimes I just want to throw in the towel.  And I have not eve gotten into medical school yet.    

Ok enough complaining...   Back to work. 

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Welcome... what can I get you to drink?



So I got my second job today,  nothing fancy, going to be working as a waitress/server at restaurant.  Not my dream job, but its what came around first and is mostly flexible.  I can work 2 - 3 days and still make ok money.

I have done food service and customer service but never been a waitress.  I am kind of nervous.

Its going to kind of suck, because I will basically not have weekends or holidays anymore, and that is going to be a big challenge with my kiddo, but such is life.

My application to the Post-bacc program is complete, hoping I hear back from them soon.   If I get accepted I may have to reevaluate the server job.   This program is supposed to be Super FREAKING hard requiring loads of time.... But unfortunately the Fin-Aide won't be enough to take care everything...


Anywhoo...  class is going ok, This next Plant Science test is going to be a beast.  Its like 10 chapters of lots of stuff... lol.  Speaking of which. I need to get back to studying...

I am still trying to hang in there.  Its ruff, but if it were easy everyone would be doing it.