Sooo...
I have come to discover if I have too much going on, I end up doing nothing... ( no bueno)
So...
class is going ok. I think (know) I need to step up my study game. So far my quizzes and the one test I have taken are bordering at low 90's, High 80's. I can do better.
My last shift at work is on the 28th. I have not found anything so far, but I have not looked very hard. I am kind of considering not working, until after I take the MCAT. Speaking of which I start the Kaplan MCAT class next week (2 nights a week until December).
I don't think I can really afford not to work, unless I take out the last of my savings, but I also can not afford to not get good grades, or jack up my MCAT. Decisions Decisions... I got a lot of thinking to do...
My daughter is staying pretty busy herself, school is going really well, she made company and the student choreography show (may have mentioned earlier.. :P)
ok... I'm out for now..
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Random
So just some random thoughts.
1. Parked in the parking garage today because there were like no spots within the first few blocks of school. If I had 400 bucks a Semester to use as I wish I would totally buy a parking pass, it is so convenient.
2. When I see dudes with their pants hanging off their bottom, I just want to slap them in the back of the head. That just looks disgusting to me.
3. For some reasons hearing stereotypical "premeds" go on and on about stuff I want to shoot myself in the head. Lol.
Ok class is about to start.
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Fail!!!!
I have had a few peeks and valleys today. Unfortunately it ended with a valley that I have allowed to distract me. I think I am closing the laptop for the night. I guess I will be double timing it tomorrow.
I am considering skipping Cell Phys tomorrow. Sitting in lecture seems like a humongous waste of time. If I didn't have genomics (most info comes from lecture) I would just study at the local library. Also I have a friend in the class I like to have a laugh with before class. Guess that will be my motivation for now.
Missing you
So I have found the one thing I miss the most so far since starting...
Reading... There are like 3 books (minimum) that are on my must read list that came out this month and last.
I have been trying to curb my addiction by allowing 1 hour at night before bed and listening to audiobook while driving. OMG that takes forever and it so hard to stop reading at night. Lol
Class is kicking my but. It's not hard, but I am falling behind in my reading. I like to be ahead or at least on track with lecture. Right now I am a few sections behind in a few classes. Which is why I feel so guilty about reading for fun.
However I am off for the next couple of days so I plan to get on track.
Ok. Off to more homework.
Friday, September 6, 2013
Why I cant study at home
So after already taking a break (which is a term I use loosely because that implies I have done work) to write my blog entry. I get a little hungry and decide to go ahead and grab me something to eat from the fridge. While in the fridge I notice a spot that I will ashamedly admit has been there prior to me noticing it today ( how long is irrelevant... kind of :) ) Anyhow... so today of all days I decide I can no longer tolerate it, so I grab the Clorox wipes to clean it up...
Now 30 mins later... I have wiped out the entire fridge inside and out, some cabinet doors, and the wall by the trash can. And I only have one line to show for the 2 hours I have been sitting at the kitchen table at my laptop.
I think this in itself is reason enough for me to pay for a prep class. I cant play around with MCAT study. For class I have finite deadlines that eventually force me to get to it. With MCAT its all or nothing. I guess I will be signing up for that pre-med group on campus, so I can get that 450$ discount to Kaplan.
Ok... I'm not getting up from this computer until its time to go get J from school.
I'm out... (again)
Now 30 mins later... I have wiped out the entire fridge inside and out, some cabinet doors, and the wall by the trash can. And I only have one line to show for the 2 hours I have been sitting at the kitchen table at my laptop.
I think this in itself is reason enough for me to pay for a prep class. I cant play around with MCAT study. For class I have finite deadlines that eventually force me to get to it. With MCAT its all or nothing. I guess I will be signing up for that pre-med group on campus, so I can get that 450$ discount to Kaplan.
Ok... I'm not getting up from this computer until its time to go get J from school.
I'm out... (again)
Quick Note
So in between my attempt to catch up on homework, and do laundry before I have to work all weekend, I decided to make a note of something. Mostly for me, but also for any people who know me that happen to follow my ramblings.
So... as I mentioned before I submitted my resignation to the scribe job. My last day will be the end of September, but I wish it was tomorrow... ( but that's another story). Most people who I talked to about this job knew how excited I was for the opportunity and how long I tried to get into the program. So there has to be some WTH... leaving already are you?
I mentioned I thought about this for a while. And the question I want to address that I thought myself and that I am sure others would think.
Are you quitting just because you don't want to work? You just quit a career, and got a taste of not being tied down to a regular job. Is it just that? Do you just want to be a professional student? Why did you leave your previous job if you were going to just quit this opportunity? ( maybe not those exact question, but you get the drift)
I would have to say "no". LOL. so that answer in itself is so bloated and holds so many extra words/thoughts... I will try and express it coherently.
1. For the most part I don't think any job is really going to make me happy until I am a practicing physician. (even then I don't expect some unimaginable euphoria. Its going to have its on bumps and bruises, but its a major goal and career, I see myself making the most of) but back to my point.
I don't think any job I get in the interim is going to be a job I love... or probably even a job I like. But it needs to be a job that I can get something out of.
- flexible schedule
- ability to make enough $$ to pay a majority of my bills
- experience improves my ability of applying to med school
- etc.
--- so with the scribe job, for the most part it was about the experience/exposure/connection. And I think I have squeezed as much as I can out of it, while sacrificing the first 2 on the list above.
--- now with school starting and my lil one getting more busy and costing more money, I have to move toward facilitating the first two.
I am still looking for the right mix of what that is. I am considering the fact that maybe a traditional steady job may not be the only option. I may look into a combination of personal assisting, cleaning, baby sitting. These give me quite a bit of flexibility, and I can manage the income by how much I take on. When I need more $$ (mostly always) I can try to work more jobs, but when major exams come up, or I am falling behind I can take on less.
-- I am aware this option is pretty hard.
If I go independent I have more flexibility and I keep more money from the job
but I don't really have connections and it will take me time to get enough jobs to really pull in $
If I go through a service, I wont have to worry about getting my name out there, and getting jobs on my own. However I will have to give a portion of my earnings away, And I may loose some of my flexibility.
-- I am also still looking at standard jobs. But I know there will be a major commitment here and a challenge with flexibility. But if the pay is high enough, maybe its worth the sacrifice.
ok.. so I got side tracked, and lost my train of thought... :( bottom line, I am not naïve enough to think I will find some perfect situation that will float me for the next 2 years before I walk into my first med school class ( yes I am owning it, I will be starting medical school in May 2015).
But even though I know I have to find something, that does not mean I have to accept just anything.
Now....
there is still the part about the experience/application meat aspect of the scribe job.
- No I don't assume I learned everything there was, in my 7 - 8 months there.
But I did have enough of an experience to be able to say my time there was meaningful. AND it allows me to continue to volunteer at the clinic and possibly any other health related or research related opportunities that come up. So I will still be adding experience and reflections to my applications. To be honest. I felt like I done more in my 2 shifts at the clinic than my months at the hospital.
Ok... I have to get back to studying...
In conclusion... I am glad I took the Scribe job, I am excited about what is to come up from other areas, and I have to continue to work on finding another source of income, because I have not found the trees that grow the green stuff.
So... as I mentioned before I submitted my resignation to the scribe job. My last day will be the end of September, but I wish it was tomorrow... ( but that's another story). Most people who I talked to about this job knew how excited I was for the opportunity and how long I tried to get into the program. So there has to be some WTH... leaving already are you?
I mentioned I thought about this for a while. And the question I want to address that I thought myself and that I am sure others would think.
Are you quitting just because you don't want to work? You just quit a career, and got a taste of not being tied down to a regular job. Is it just that? Do you just want to be a professional student? Why did you leave your previous job if you were going to just quit this opportunity? ( maybe not those exact question, but you get the drift)
I would have to say "no". LOL. so that answer in itself is so bloated and holds so many extra words/thoughts... I will try and express it coherently.
1. For the most part I don't think any job is really going to make me happy until I am a practicing physician. (even then I don't expect some unimaginable euphoria. Its going to have its on bumps and bruises, but its a major goal and career, I see myself making the most of) but back to my point.
I don't think any job I get in the interim is going to be a job I love... or probably even a job I like. But it needs to be a job that I can get something out of.
- flexible schedule
- ability to make enough $$ to pay a majority of my bills
- experience improves my ability of applying to med school
- etc.
--- so with the scribe job, for the most part it was about the experience/exposure/connection. And I think I have squeezed as much as I can out of it, while sacrificing the first 2 on the list above.
--- now with school starting and my lil one getting more busy and costing more money, I have to move toward facilitating the first two.
I am still looking for the right mix of what that is. I am considering the fact that maybe a traditional steady job may not be the only option. I may look into a combination of personal assisting, cleaning, baby sitting. These give me quite a bit of flexibility, and I can manage the income by how much I take on. When I need more $$ (mostly always) I can try to work more jobs, but when major exams come up, or I am falling behind I can take on less.
-- I am aware this option is pretty hard.
If I go independent I have more flexibility and I keep more money from the job
but I don't really have connections and it will take me time to get enough jobs to really pull in $
If I go through a service, I wont have to worry about getting my name out there, and getting jobs on my own. However I will have to give a portion of my earnings away, And I may loose some of my flexibility.
-- I am also still looking at standard jobs. But I know there will be a major commitment here and a challenge with flexibility. But if the pay is high enough, maybe its worth the sacrifice.
ok.. so I got side tracked, and lost my train of thought... :( bottom line, I am not naïve enough to think I will find some perfect situation that will float me for the next 2 years before I walk into my first med school class ( yes I am owning it, I will be starting medical school in May 2015).
But even though I know I have to find something, that does not mean I have to accept just anything.
Now....
there is still the part about the experience/application meat aspect of the scribe job.
- No I don't assume I learned everything there was, in my 7 - 8 months there.
But I did have enough of an experience to be able to say my time there was meaningful. AND it allows me to continue to volunteer at the clinic and possibly any other health related or research related opportunities that come up. So I will still be adding experience and reflections to my applications. To be honest. I felt like I done more in my 2 shifts at the clinic than my months at the hospital.
Ok... I have to get back to studying...
In conclusion... I am glad I took the Scribe job, I am excited about what is to come up from other areas, and I have to continue to work on finding another source of income, because I have not found the trees that grow the green stuff.
Thursday, September 5, 2013
The good, the bad, and the ugly...
Good:
Clinic shift was awesome today. The surgeon was in got to see a cyst after it was removed, missed the actual removal was working triage.
And he invited me and another girl to attend a suture potluck in October.
Bad:
I still have not caught up my reading, but my homework and quizzes are done
Ugly:
The lady called me about my resignation "request". Really?!?! A request. What are they going to do? Tell me I can't leave?
I didn't call back yet. May do it later.
Monday, September 2, 2013
Transitions
Just going to spend a few minutes on one topic today.
--------------------------- WORK ----------------------------
So I submitted my resignation to my scribe job yesterday. So the 9/27/13 should be my last shift. I am going to begin applying for some of the part time jobs that I didn't do before because of the changing scribe schedule.
So this decision stressed me out a lot. 2 main reasons
1. Application Stand point
- Of course the longer you do this job the better,
- I talked to a couple of docs and asked how bad it would look if I didn't stay a complete year. And they both were like since you are doing other things like volunteering, and you have school and a family, its understandable that you cant stay for 1 - 2 years like every one else. One doc even said most docs don't know about scribes, she didn't until she worked at this place and they were required to use them.
- So I am just going to have to have my story together if I am asked about why I did it for less than a year.
- I am going to continue working at the clinic, so that is a continuation of my exposure to health care, and it ties in to work I want to do after I graduate, so I feel like it would help facilitate the conversation of why I left.
- I also emailed my microbiology professor to ask if he has any low level task he needs done in his microlab. I just want to get a chance to observe and just see what goes on there. And maybe if I get to stay long enough I can learn a few things and see if research may be something I want to pursue. Unfortunately MD PHD programs are even harder to get into than regular MD programs, so its probably not really an option.
2. Money
- Of course I have to have a job.
- But I have a month to find a replacement, and hopefully with a way better salary.
- I am going to keep applying, and I may email the secretary for this last job I applied to. I am really not understanding why I am not getting any interviews. Don't get me wrong. I am not trying to sound conceited. But these were the requirements for the last job.
I don't know. Maybe its just not the right opportunity for me.
Well I guess that's about it for today. I have not studied at all this weekend. I think working 6 out of the last 8 days just messed me up. I have a lot to catch up on. Good thing I am off next few days.
--------------------------- WORK ----------------------------
So I submitted my resignation to my scribe job yesterday. So the 9/27/13 should be my last shift. I am going to begin applying for some of the part time jobs that I didn't do before because of the changing scribe schedule.
So this decision stressed me out a lot. 2 main reasons
1. Application Stand point
- Of course the longer you do this job the better,
- I talked to a couple of docs and asked how bad it would look if I didn't stay a complete year. And they both were like since you are doing other things like volunteering, and you have school and a family, its understandable that you cant stay for 1 - 2 years like every one else. One doc even said most docs don't know about scribes, she didn't until she worked at this place and they were required to use them.
- So I am just going to have to have my story together if I am asked about why I did it for less than a year.
- I am going to continue working at the clinic, so that is a continuation of my exposure to health care, and it ties in to work I want to do after I graduate, so I feel like it would help facilitate the conversation of why I left.
- I also emailed my microbiology professor to ask if he has any low level task he needs done in his microlab. I just want to get a chance to observe and just see what goes on there. And maybe if I get to stay long enough I can learn a few things and see if research may be something I want to pursue. Unfortunately MD PHD programs are even harder to get into than regular MD programs, so its probably not really an option.
2. Money
- Of course I have to have a job.
- But I have a month to find a replacement, and hopefully with a way better salary.
- I am going to keep applying, and I may email the secretary for this last job I applied to. I am really not understanding why I am not getting any interviews. Don't get me wrong. I am not trying to sound conceited. But these were the requirements for the last job.
- High School diploma
- Eighteen years of age
- Type a minimum of 40 wpm
- Knowledge of computers and office machines
I don't know. Maybe its just not the right opportunity for me.
Well I guess that's about it for today. I have not studied at all this weekend. I think working 6 out of the last 8 days just messed me up. I have a lot to catch up on. Good thing I am off next few days.
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